my trusted friend, resistance.

Time has demonstrated to me that I am a creature of habit, deep trenches dug from the comfort found in known territory. Over the last several years, in the course of my journey I noticed something peculiar happening....the practices, places and people that I resisted the most were cleverly placed in my path to provide an opportunity. These were not opportunities to dig deeper trenches but to expand out of the muck, towards light. Any time I looked at someone and felt an emotion or reaction, I was looking in a perfectly placed mirror. The mirror would reflect back to me; my fears, my subconscious, my limiting beliefs, and sometimes even my conscious resistance. Make no mistake, the mirror has also reflected back the most awe inspiring radiant light, peace, joy, grace and unfathomable beauty. To attempt to describe the vision in words, seems futile.... as this magnificent light simply transcends written or spoken words.

If someone angry appeared, this was an energetic match to my vibration. Did you know emotions can be measured on a scale? True story i.e. real scientific stuff. Even if at the moment I felt, on the surface happy or content, energetically I was a magnet for the reflection that appeared in my respective mirror. Each mirror was a teacher to me, bringing into focus emotions stuffed deep down into the bowels of my being. Yep that's right, the $hit I was holding onto (physical, emotional or spiritual 'stuff' or clutter) would keep appearing until properly resolved.

If I allowed myself to really feel my emotions, not in reactionary participation but as an observer, a witness to the beautiful signals custom made for me, I could discern clearly how close I was to alignment with my purpose. Alignment with my soul. Alignment with my highest self. Or alignment with my inner voice ❤️. Trust me when I say, the school of thought subscribed becomes of little importance once it clicks. No matter the set of beliefs held dear to heart, at the end of the day it is all the same magical carousel ride.

The momentum of my resistance was similar to a funnel cloud, circling above, moving about, unpredictable and daunting....until I allowed the force to move through me, it would persist in regular visits. My Acknowledgment of resistance, from the perspective of a witness, was like having a priceless ticket, front row seat, right on the ropes, to a prize fight! A boxing match...Ego verses Soul. I could really see the brutality of what was happening, it was always an unknown if I would have the courage to 'throw in the towel' (i.e. surrender), continue to get pummeled or expand and grow? Seems like an easy answer! But it was not. I will now provide a spoiler alert that took me a couple of decades to learn; the solution to every ounce of resistance in my life was always, wait for it......love.

The things in my life that brought me the most peace and joy were the very things I resisted. For example, meditation and chanting. I would meditate daily for a while and then start making excuses....a little voice in my head would say, 'Meditation again? Seriously, annoyed with the stillness, just hit snooze.' That was a wake up call, flag on the play sports fans! As a witness to my behavior, I was clearly performing a perfectly orchestrated act of self-sabotage. Moments like this gave me great pride for recognizing my resistance and making conscious choices to move on through. I know myself better than anyone, right? So props to me on identifying my Jedi ninja ways when it comes to resistance, unearthing some stellar mind trickery in the process.

I am officially honoring and giving gratitude to my ego, with resistance as its henchmen, for the lifetime of perceived safety and security it has provided me🙏🏼❤️. It has served me extremely well and provided for me, I am truly blessed and fortunate in so many ways. For this chapter in my book we part ways, there has been no shortage of fear, insecurity, self-doubt etc., but ultimately my desire for alignment and self love are here to stay, no going back.

Now is the time to explore what lay beyond the resistance, beyond the perceived safety. In my minds eye it looks a little like this; an openness, space, freedom and creativity all experienced fully mind, body and spirit. A meeting place of heaven and Earth❤️. Rock solid knowing that any fear is an illusion as only love is real.

Letting go now.

Letting go of resistance.

Letting go of fear.

Letting go of limiting beliefs.

Letting go of self criticism.

Letting go of any care of what others think.

Letting go of who I thought I was.

Letting go of control.

Knowing that faith and trust are all that matter.

I will tell you that most of the time I knew the answers.....I knew exactly what I should be doing, but doing it was another story altogether. I can tell you something with great certainty....you know the answers for yourself as well! The question becomes are you (and I) brave enough to tell our ego to 'zip it' for just a moment, long enough for us to push past what is safe, comfortable and inside the lines for what is challenging, uncomfortable and unknown?

When we push past the fear of the unknown, we will know. It is the feeling of butterflies in the tummy and the elation of small child home from school on a snow day.... shaken up together in a wonderfully magical elixir. Alignment feels aligned. There is no mistaking it for, 'maybe I am doing the right thing'....it feels good. But to get there we must push past the parts of ourselves designed to keep us safe, comfortable and small or smaller than our souls purpose intended. You were designed to be expansive, magnificent and radiant. Sometimes we need help to remember, help shedding the mask of who we learned to be in order to return to who has always been waiting to emerge from our human experience cocoon....a divine being of pure radiant light a powerful co-creator.

From Unia;

Resistance is often a teacher. Look into the spaces in your human story and you see the things that cause you the most pain and discomfort. Whether they be; a person, a situation, a part of your reality....this is an indicator of the area that needs the most healing. You are completely capable of filling that space and healing that space with exactly what you are most resistant to. Through your focused intention, let that space no longer bring you discomfort. You may find compassion that heals, or energy that heals, or love that heals. Whether it be physical, emotional or spiritual pain, you have the capacity to heal that space. When you find discomfort, we say go closer and examine the source of this and there is also healing there. We hope these words reach your innermost thoughts and resonate with you, so as to expand your growth.